Originally I posted an entirely different entry here but elected to take it down. It was hostile and angry and had that "man hating" tone that I deplore. The reason for this would be because of recent developments . It such a crippling feeling to be decieved. To have the wool pulled over your eyes, and the floor pulled out from under you. It hurts, it makes the same air that once felt refreshing and cool, feel suffocating, and choking. But whats worse is to believe in something so much that you would give anyhting for it, and the very person who should believe in it to doesn't give a rat's ass.

People most especially women really are interesting creatures. Why is it that we may not want something but we don't want anyone else to have it? Why is it that we think we have ownership to things that we NO LONGER HAVE. Why don't we understand the limitations and boundaries that life sets? The new year has already begun with people testing me. There truly is a side to me that I try to desperately keep hidden but people just keeping scratching the d*** surface trying to bring it up. I'm not the person to mess with in this manner. I will ensure that your quest is null and void, that your dreams never come true and you're life will ultimately shrivel into despair and nothingness. STOP F$^#$%$#$ WITH ME!

Now that I've dealt with that on to happier things. Christmas went well, Kwanzaa was great, and New Years was crazy (to say the least ) But all in all I'm actually glad the holidays are over. The apartment is coming along, still no furniture but I did get a shower curtain and some dishes (yessssssssssssssss ) Praise God for the little things. I'm not looking forward to classes this year though, wait I still have holds on my account so no classes for me yet , but I'll have some by Monday. Thats all I really feel like typing at this point. If anybody has a hook up on food let me know, the only thing in my fridge is 4 sticks of butter and a bottle of water. I'm hungry out here!!!!